When hate and anger stir in your
blood, you just want to flush it all out.
But how? Is there a tool invented
by the doctors or psychologists so it will be easier for us humans to do
it? Because I want it badly…so badly
that I just want to submerge into these negative feelings so I can come out
clean and I want it now.
But I can’t rush it. My veins might pop any moment because of rage
and fury. These elements destroy my
inner-self and irritate my mind. And I
lose again, all over again.
I find it hard to get through
once again. It feels like everything
around me is blur and flaming red. My
blood pressure hits the red meter instantly each time I remember the things
happened for the past two weeks. Yes, I
am also weak and I acknowledge that, but I am also wiser now that I just want
to let it all end.
This holy week, I confess the
sins I've committed. I am not perfect,
well, who is perfect anyway? I've been through
a lot of obstacles in the past decades of my life and now is a living proof that HE never gives up on me. I always feel his presence each time I am
into a bad situation. My family
encountered lots and lots of struggles, still, HIS guiding light never
flicker. Even if my folks are away and I
am alone here in the house, I know his loving arms keep me safe.
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| Photo taken at Burot Beach Calatagan, Batangas in one of our Camera Club's Photo Walks. Yup, that's moi in this silhouette shot! |
I thank you Dear Father for
giving me the love that keeps me going each day. That love you divided through the family and
friends that I have in my life. I couldn't ask for more but I just want to thank you.
Whatever plans you have for me, I will gladly accept it. May you shower your graces to us and keep us
all protected.
May these negative vibes be
flushed out from me. You know that I am
into these tiny steps of picking up the pieces of myself.
In YOUR time, I will get there.
