Birthday Blues

One of James Taylor's (JT) hits...

"Don't Let Me Be Lonely Tonight"

Do me wrong, do me right. Tell me lies but hold me tight.
Save your good-byes for the morning light, but don't let me be lonely tonight.

Say goodbye and say hello. Sure enough good to see you, but it's time to go.
Don't say yes but please don't say no, I don't want to be lonely tonight.

Go away then, damn you, go on and do as you please,
You ain't gonna see me getting down on my knees.
I'm undecided, and your heart's been divided, you've been turning my world upside down.

Do me wrong, do me right, right now, baby. Go on and tell me lies but hold me tight.
Save your good-byes for the morning light, morning light,
but don't let me be lonely tonight.
I don't want to be lonely tonight, no, no, I don't want to be lonely tonight.

I don't want to be lonely tonight.

Sulked and Soaked

Currently, I am listening to Carole King’s You’ve Got a Friend.  What I have is the version that she sang in a concert that at latter part of the song, James Taylor appeared and sang the song with her.  I so love this version.  The emotions it exude just watching them and how Carole was surprised when she saw her long-time friend emerged from the backstage.

When I watched the video for the first time, I was surprised too.  It blew me away.  How I’ve always wanted this song like forever that I even tried playing this in my guitar ‘struggles’ way back in high school.  For me, this song is one of my all-time favorites.   For a sappy lad like me, I lost track of how many times I’ve played this to give me support in times of distress.  I’ve always believed that out of the long-list of friends I have, there will be at least two or three who will be there when I call them out of nowhere for whatever reasons.  I am not sure if I am just pathetic right now, but as the lyrics go, ‘Close your eyes and think of me, soon I will be there to brighten up even your darkest night. You just call out my name and you know wherever I am, I’ll come running to see you again.  Winter, Spring, Summer or Fall, all you’ve got to do is call And I’ll be there, Yes, I will….You’ve got a friend.’  It is just amazing how can a friend assures you of ‘being there’ with just one call?

Lots of thoughts are just swirling in my head now.  See, for several months now, I’ve been struggling with self-preservation.  I am avoiding contacts almost from everyone and chose to just be with my Beastfriend.  I also decided to lessen the time spent online.  It was hard at first, but it helped me go back and read the books waiting for my time.  Well, I was able to finish three books in a span of two months and yes, I know, I still have to continue reading The Game of Thrones Book 2 wherein I am now on the 200^th page as of this writing.  Geesh!  I am still at 40% and hopefully, I can finish it before this month ends.  Yes, it is a struggle especially now that Netflix and the series supply from Sir Aris are non-stop.  Whew!  Well, I can say it has been an addiction.  I was able to finish seven series in the last three months.  Yeah, I know…what else can I do?  I was about to buy a set of cross stitch but good thing my cousin shared her password in Netflix. When I am alone at my place, I am confused whether to read, watch a movie or resume with the series.  Life is Good with a bit of competition, right?

Well, today is not a good day for me that I opted to write down whatever comes out from my head.  I can't seem to watch nor read.  I am sulking.  I am hugging a big pillow now while howling my heart out.  I don't know what else to jot down here but I just want to let these thoughts out through this Always-Be-Here-Song of JT!

Yes, it is piteous that I yearn for that one friend I’ve got who’s ready to sing this all-time favorite song of mine.  Just being by my side---right now.

For now, let James Taylor sing this for me instead.

Tidbits:  I hate being too emotional.