Sulked and Soaked

Currently, I am listening to Carole King’s You’ve Got a Friend.  What I have is the version that she sang in a concert that at latter part of the song, James Taylor appeared and sang the song with her.  I so love this version.  The emotions it exude just watching them and how Carole was surprised when she saw her long-time friend emerged from the backstage.

When I watched the video for the first time, I was surprised too.  It blew me away.  How I’ve always wanted this song like forever that I even tried playing this in my guitar ‘struggles’ way back in high school.  For me, this song is one of my all-time favorites.   For a sappy lad like me, I lost track of how many times I’ve played this to give me support in times of distress.  I’ve always believed that out of the long-list of friends I have, there will be at least two or three who will be there when I call them out of nowhere for whatever reasons.  I am not sure if I am just pathetic right now, but as the lyrics go, ‘Close your eyes and think of me, soon I will be there to brighten up even your darkest night. You just call out my name and you know wherever I am, I’ll come running to see you again.  Winter, Spring, Summer or Fall, all you’ve got to do is call And I’ll be there, Yes, I will….You’ve got a friend.’  It is just amazing how can a friend assures you of ‘being there’ with just one call?

Lots of thoughts are just swirling in my head now.  See, for several months now, I’ve been struggling with self-preservation.  I am avoiding contacts almost from everyone and chose to just be with my Beastfriend.  I also decided to lessen the time spent online.  It was hard at first, but it helped me go back and read the books waiting for my time.  Well, I was able to finish three books in a span of two months and yes, I know, I still have to continue reading The Game of Thrones Book 2 wherein I am now on the 200^th page as of this writing.  Geesh!  I am still at 40% and hopefully, I can finish it before this month ends.  Yes, it is a struggle especially now that Netflix and the series supply from Sir Aris are non-stop.  Whew!  Well, I can say it has been an addiction.  I was able to finish seven series in the last three months.  Yeah, I know…what else can I do?  I was about to buy a set of cross stitch but good thing my cousin shared her password in Netflix. When I am alone at my place, I am confused whether to read, watch a movie or resume with the series.  Life is Good with a bit of competition, right?

Well, today is not a good day for me that I opted to write down whatever comes out from my head.  I can't seem to watch nor read.  I am sulking.  I am hugging a big pillow now while howling my heart out.  I don't know what else to jot down here but I just want to let these thoughts out through this Always-Be-Here-Song of JT!

Yes, it is piteous that I yearn for that one friend I’ve got who’s ready to sing this all-time favorite song of mine.  Just being by my side---right now.

For now, let James Taylor sing this for me instead.

Tidbits:  I hate being too emotional.